A hypothetical dialogue (believe it or not) about a crisis:
“What’s the point in talking about it. It’s not gonna solve anything”
“What’s the point of checking out that person at the gym. You’re married, right?”
“Yeah”
“Well, that’s not gonna solve anything, either”
“Yeah, but…”
“What?”
“It’s different”
“How?”
“Seriously?”
“Seriously, put it into words”
“Well…I dunno, it’s…when I’m looking at someone I’m…I don’t know how to say it”
“You’re blocking. You know but you stop thinking, and you act instead”
“Right. You’ve said that before. I’m…wait, acting?”
“You’re acting on something, a feeling”
“…yeah, you know what it is—this is interesting—I think I am solving something, in a way. I mean, when I do that stuff I’m taking care of business, if you know what I mean. It feels necessary. It’s…”
(pause)
“…you want me to say the rest?”
(sigh) “Maybe, I…now I lost my train of thought”
“Interruptus”
“What?”
“Forget it”
“Oh, I get what you’re saying, I think. Well, I mean—okay—I’m expressing my sexuality, right? Jeez, that sounds weird putting it like that. Finishing, I mean. I’m…(laughs) I don’t know why this is so hard to say. I’m used to…I guess I can’t control myself, or it seems like…I just can’t turn it off, ya know?”
(pause)
“Or on, in another sense. Again, it seems like—”
“Yeah, okay, I get it. You’re not gonna say it for me. I need to use the words, give it meaning because…Gawd, I wish you’d explain again why that’s so important. (pause) Awright, so again, I can’t just turn off my sexuality, right? That’s the problem. It’s there…all the time. Waiting”
“True”
(pause)
“Okay…(shrugs)…so?”
“But so is the rest of you”
Graeme Daniels Psychewriter 